New direction... to my life...


A dad thinks...


Its right here, the day we were all waiting for... For the past year or so, there were so many things we wanted to happen, so many things we wanted to not happen, so many tests we wanted to come out positive and so many tests we wanted to come out negative... The stars lined up perfectly and everything turned out ALMOST as we planned it... 


Tomorrow is the day when the babies will be delivered... S did an exceptional job of nesting the babies - so much that they dont want to come out at all... So, even if the delivery does not happen naturally, the babies will be delivered by a ceasarean operation... so, both S and i feel bad that we are pulling the babies out even though they dont want to come out... This thought makes my heart bleed...


To make S go through a surgery, where they will cut her belly and pull the babies out - the whole idea makes me feel like crying.


After umpteen days where the babies would move inside S and I would feel their movements with my palm, tomorrow, i will actually hold them in my arms. I dont know what I will feel then, but it will be the best feeling ever for sure.


Cant wait!!!