Confused...

Back on the blogosphere after a long time -- 2 months to be precise... Its been a busy time... 


During my school days, a select group of students who had done well in studies were nominated for a advanced class called as "scholarship". This class taught the students Math, IQ and English  meant for senior classes. I did well enough to be a part of this esteemed group.


During my scholarship days, as a part of my verbal course, I often learnt a lot of sayings like -- 


Do not judge a book by its cover
Grass is always greener on the other side
All that glitters is not gold


At that time, the only use of learning was to score more marks in the exam. We never had a chance to understand the meaning of those sayings. May be we were not mature enough to learn from experiences of life then. May be the safety net of our parents then was good enough to shield us from the heat of those moments.


But now that we are long out of the safety net of parents and home, we will will feel the heat and burn our fingers from such flames.  Sadly, another saying comes to mind now


Experience is a comb that comes after you turn bald


Some experiences in life make you question your beliefs, ethics and everything that you stood for. It forces you to not spend time with someone whom you really want to spend time with. It is makes you postpone the things that you really want to do now. It does not let you sleep when you really cant stay awake any longer. It makes you do things on weekends when the only thing you want to do is to put your feet up and relax.


When the core principles, that you led your life on so far, are questioned, it is a confusing time. You do things that you would not allow yourself normally to do. You make decisions that you know you are going to regret in the future.


This may not be the best decision on some other day, but in today's circumstances, it is the best decision....


You take the decisions in best faith, and just hope that -- 


The book with a torn cover is an awesome read... 
The brown grass on the other side is soft and cool... 
The non-glittering metal is platinum...